Fools and madmen

2008-11-26T01:14:00.000-08:00

Leave your brains behind for this one.
quite good actually..
John Abraham is soooooo damn HOT!!! ahhh!!

From one hottie to another, time to watch Body of Lies.

2008-11-17T20:49:00.000-08:00

I am at peace with myself
with you
and
with the world

Same jeans - The View

why cant we have such drama in Singapore?

2008-11-05T06:56:00.000-08:00

What a long absence!!!

Quick update to assure everyone I am still alive and kicking. This year has been nothing less than awesome. I am extremely happy with where I am and what I am doing and I am not about ready to give that up for anything else.

I told my mother today that I am ready to get married …..IF she can find me someone as intelligent and brilliant {in more ways than one} like Kal Penn. LOL!!!

Dang!! I wonder who wrote his speech

i live in calm looking to the end

2008-06-25T07:14:00.000-07:00

This time I promise to finish the classic version of Jane Eyre

It is writing like this that makes me feel so good…

“Life appears to me too short to be spent in nursing animosity, or registering wrongs. We are, and must be, one and all, burdened with faults in this world : but time will come soon when, I trust, we shall out them off in putting off our corruptible bodies ; when debasement and sin will fall from us with this cumbrous frame of flesh , and only the spark of spirit will remain- the impalpable principle of life and thought, pure as when it left the Creator to inspire the creature ; whence it came it will return , perhaps to pass through gradations of glory, from pale human soul to brighten to the seraph!......Besides with this creed I can so clearly distinguish between the criminal and his crime , I can so sincerely forgive the first while I abhor the last; with this creed, revenge never worries my heart, degradation never too deeply disgusts me, injustice never crushes me too low: I live in clam looking to the end.”

I can’t wait for my family to be complete and my house to full again…

sometimes they are all i need

2008-06-03T21:01:00.000-07:00

hey pretty girl-- nice bum--where u from?

2008-05-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

i like this song :)

british invasion

2008-05-05T05:21:00.000-07:00

the day M.J gave up moon walking for bhangara

bloody brilliant indeed..

:)

they are speaking some sort of dialect i've never heard before..lol

2008-05-01T02:27:00.000-07:00

i can't wait to see this one..

"Puh - lease you're barely even brown"

i'm outta of time

2008-04-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

To those getting armed and ready to battle the exams..All the very best!!

May your pens and brains work against everything that stands in the way of your A's..haha

Have fun!!

two left feet?? really??

2008-04-04T08:10:00.000-07:00

No matter what, he will always remain my 1st teenage crush..LOL

2008-03-21T06:05:00.000-07:00

2008-02-28T19:29:00.000-08:00

I want to feel the autumn breeze and smell the dampness in the air.

I want to be able to gaze at the greenery and feel the sunlight and cold wind compete to hug me.

Somebody take me there..

being the busy busy bee..

2008-02-25T22:11:00.000-08:00

I’ve just found out that the only thing worse than BEING elitist is TRYING to be elitist.

So i hope you stop trying..

Like the poet needs the pain

2008-02-13T07:23:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine’s Day!!

You want commitment
Take a look into these eyes
They burn with a fire, just for you now
Until the end of time
I would do anything
I'd beg, I'd steal, I'd die
To have you in these arms tonight
Baby I want you like the roses
Want the rain
You know I need you
Like a poet needs the pain
I would give anything
My blood my love my life

If you were in these arms tonight
I'd hold you
I'd need you
I'd get down on my knees for you
And make everything alright
If you were in these arms
I'd love you
I'd please you
I'd tell you that I'd never leave you
And love you till the end of time
If you were in these arms tonight

We stared at the sun
And we made a promise
A promise this world would never blind us
These are my words
Our words were our songs
Our songs are our prayers
These prayers keep me strong
It's what I believe
If you were in these arms tonight

-Bon Jovi

Nothing like Bon Jovi love songs :)

another one with no title..

2008-02-05T22:20:00.000-08:00

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
-Marianne Williamson

I was looking for this quote since I saw Coach Carter last year.
Everything about it is just perfect.

As much as I would love to see the possibility of having another female president, I think Obama would probably do a better a job. It also looks like the huckabee is coming from under..

I have now become a fan of Sex and the city all thanks to my lit module. I completely get why Singapore would never air that programme considering all the pushing they have been doing for people to get married..

its time for the saints

2008-02-01T18:17:00.000-08:00

[a flower]
tulip

[an animal]
Horse

[a color]
white

[a bug]
I already am a bugger

Short Answer

[are you left handed or right handed?]
Right..

[are you smart?]
I’d like to think so

[how many personalities do you have?]
3 to be exact

[how many piercings do you have?]
2 on each ear

[what music do you feel like listening to]
Right now..erm..All saints..i don’t know why

[do you have contact lenses?]
yes

[what languages do you know?]
English, tamil Malayalam and Bahasa Indonesia : )

[what's the best awards show?]
they are all rubbish

[what words do you overuse?]
“annoying”, “whatever”, “nice”

[do you like to dance?]
As of now,dance is all I want to do all the time

[do you like to talk on the phone?]
not really..

[how many times have you moved houses?]
3 times

[what do you think of chain letters?]
get rid of them

[do you like where you live?]
I love where I live

[how many people go to your school?]
I’d go crazy counting....

[are you shy?]
yes {blushes**}

[do you talk to yourself?]
All the time..haha..

[is your house 1, 2, or 3 stories?]
2

[what do you miss the most now[
My JC days

[what do you do when you're nervous?]
keep silent

[do you like classical music?]
yes

[how old do you wish you were?]
7

[what are you dreading to do]
Trying to finish up 500 pages of S.R by Thursday

[is love blind?]
No we are..

:)

2008-01-24T21:32:00.000-08:00

Fate and Faith

2008-01-23T06:52:00.000-08:00

"What is this earth and sea of which I have seen so much, whence is it produced, and what I am, and all the other creatures, wild and tame, human and brutal, whence are we?"
-Robinson Crusoe

This book is turning out a lot better than I expected it to and I’ve got a few more hours to complete it before my very intimidating lecture starts…

Get back to work!!!

2008-01-11T20:43:00.001-08:00

I am absolutely disgusted with the way some educators behave and think. How can you write a student off, the very student you are supposed help?

Anyone who knows me well enough knows that the only grudge I hold against people is their constant need to classify/ label/ stereotype people. It’s especially saddening when all this starts at a very young age. I also don’t know when people are going to get that there is nothing wrong at all for someone to be in a normal stream. It doesn’t mean we are any less competent than anyone else. It just means we need a little more time and what the hell’s wrong with that?

Let me at this point add that there is nothing wrong with going to an ITE. They are as smart and sometimes even smarter than anyone else. I have a cousin who was from the technical stream and now in the ITE and trust me when I say his grasp of English and the way he speaks is FANTASTIC{better than us sometimes..}

I got a lot more to say but I best stop here.

RANDOM

Nothing beats watching Thalapathi{the best Indian movie ever} on a lazy Saturday afternoon…I hate aravind swamy for taking shobi : ) away from the hero…

happy feet

2008-01-10T07:45:00.000-08:00

I FINALLY GOT MY MODULES {does the happy dance}
This bidding system really has the potential to rile a perfectly sane person up. So anyway this sem these are modules I intend to do..

Reading Film and Cultural Texts

The Eighteenth Century literature

Contemporary Social Issues in Singapore

Nation-Building in Singapore

Bahasa Indonesia 1

I really wanted to do the Malay module but the exam dates were clashing and I refuse to patronise any European language, at least for now.. {Evil laughter}

My holidays have sadly come to an end. But for the first time, I have no qualms or regrets of how I’ve spent it. I got to see and experience Korea, spent some excellent with my family and relatives {heaps fun}, watched some good movies and had most importantly had a lot of “me” time: )

So all in all I had a wickedly good time..

All the 21st birthday invitations have started coming my way. And I have already told my mom very assertively at that, I do not wish to have one. I got nothing against celebrating it my 2 brothers had theirs; I just got my own reasons for not wanting to. Besides ,I hate getting all the attention : )

LET'S DANCE

2008-01-02T22:54:00.000-08:00

Get on the floor
no need to hold back

And the bidding season begins....

Happy New Beginings!!

2007-12-31T10:12:00.000-08:00

OH MY GAWD its jay sean.Ahhhh!!!!{inside joke..}

IT’S 2008!!!
I love the fact that there’s just so much optimism at the start of every year. It’s all nice and jolly: )

Since it’s the first post for 2008 I have decided to look back at 2007 just to be grateful for all the things that have happened..

So 2007 started for me in Perth. That trip actually saw a lot of “firsts” for me, like my first time in a Casino and I also tried dirt biking which was heaps fun.
The came my A-level results and eventually saw me end up in NUS which is by-far the best thing that has ever happened to me. Now I can really say my dream came true{and totally mean it}

I am thankful for all the opportunities I have..

2007 also showed me how much I actually love need and appreciate my family. I mean there are days when I just want to strangle them all but, at the end of day they make me who I am and I love them immensely.

I am thankful for the awesome family I have been blessed with..

There is also one very poignant moment I shared with my close mates. It’s true when they say you find out your true support when tragedy strikes. There’s this one incident that happened at a funeral .I don’t know if shobi will remember this though..We were saying our final goodbye to a very dear soul. I honestly didn’t want to go through the process and I really didn’t know what to do and at just that moment shobi held my hand it was that moment that just hit me real hard. I know I have the best of friends surrounding me.
We might not always meet each other but we will always HAVE each other : )
My dance dolls have also been through quite a lot but we have all become stronger people. We really have the best class : )

Counting the blessings..

I am thankful for the loving, caring, people that surround me..
I am thankful for healthy mind and body that I have
I am thankful for the food I will always have to eat
I am thankful for the peace and happiness I enjoy
And most importantly,
I am thankful that I can be thankful for the many things in life : )

My wishes for a fantastic 2008.May this year bring many wonderful new beginnings!!!

2007-12-29T01:16:00.000-08:00

YAY!!!

I couldn’t help but tear quite a little here and there. Then again i cry a lot especially when it comes to movies..
I found this movie really really good ..

Aamir Khan is the best!!

this movie and today's newspapers have re-affirmed my calling : )

2007-12-25T04:13:00.000-08:00

awesome awesome movie!!!

i love that dog

music to fit my mood

2007-12-21T22:30:00.000-08:00

ahh bliss

Family time :)

2007-12-18T07:50:00.000-08:00

I love these people too much!!

tiny bit of korea

2007-12-18T07:38:00.000-08:00

I am too lazy to upload the rest..

wuioxkndl

2007-12-01T08:54:00.000-08:00

2 more papers and the these 2 are the ones that are a real headache for different reasons..

As much as i hate to admit it,"i sooo wanna marry him"{in high-pitched teeny voice}

i love his new songs and him too{sratches the floor with toes}
:)

aiyah let the next 72 hours pass really quick...

2007-11-28T19:49:00.000-08:00

6 more days..

9 more days for my holiday

17 more days for the maternal side's roadtrip..

My dear fellow indians pls stop all your protests at least till the 20th..

sydney,sudan,malaysia 3 different places one thing in common== unrest

"Come back as Jesus
Come back and save the world
We need a teacher,
and You are the only one
Come back as Rama
Forgive us for what we've done
Come back as Allah
Come back for every one"
-colonial cousins

2007-11-21T05:03:00.000-08:00

ahhhh stresssss!!!!!!

"I shall be good,simply beacause i cannot be bad"

2007-11-19T00:27:00.000-08:00

Preview of The Last Lear..

OH MY GOD!!!I SOOOO LOVE THE WAY HE SPEAKS!!!

I laughed out real loud at 1.00 ..kwakakaka

2007-11-17T23:54:00.000-08:00

I am coming Ranbir!!! i am coming...

I hate having to do my stuff according to other people's timing..
thats what happens when you get involved in so many things SHALINI!!!!

I feel super guilty for bailing out on the sat movie last min..arghhh..when will people start to realise that as bizzare as it sounds,i actually have a life of my own :)

9 more days before the 1st paper
and 18 more days before it all ends....YIPPIE

The suffocating stench of death..

2007-11-14T03:42:00.000-08:00

Death in itself is bad regardless of situation but when you have to go at such a young age that’s when it stinks terribly. See just last week after reading a very death –oriented depressing poem and thinking about it ,I had accepted death{at least I thought I did} I saw it as another part of life , like a rite of passage. The thing that bothered me was not the actual passing itself but rather the consequences it had on people after it. But now I don’t know how to accept it anymore. I just don’t see the sense in it all. I don’t blame GOD or anyone else for it {that’s a whole different issue} I realise that everyone has their time and their purpose in life. But how to do you cling on to that believe when you see a young teenager who hasn’t even seen or lived long enough to even figure out what life is or who he is pass on?
It does not make it any better that I have to now complete my lit text which also deals about death and love poem that deal with pain..

The part where I get emotional

After today, I know I have girls I can always fall back on. We may not always meet or talk but we will be there for each other. I am extremely proud, happy and most importantly grateful to have friends like them. I love you girls so much!

I have also made a promise to myself. A promise to let go of all grudges I have held against anyone this far. Life’s too short for me to be wasting time being angry and unhappy :) Things and sometimes people don’t always turn out the way I expect them to but I guess I’ll just have to be thankful for everything else that’s goes on wonderfully right around me.

Tanya used to say death always happens in 3s..i desperately hope and pray for the falsity of this because I cannot handle anymore. I am off to say my I love you’s to my family..and etta if you are reading this and I’m sure you are.. Regardless of how much we fight or how so bloody much you irritate me, I love you

Reign over me

2007-11-10T22:57:00.000-08:00

AWESOME movie but warning ..it does get a tiny bit depressing...

:)

l"au"

2007-11-01T08:19:00.000-07:00

Yay! I am officially done with all my assignments (does the happy dance)

Today and the next two lit lecturers and tutorials will be on LOVE. It’s amazing how much there can actually be to just one word.

One of the sonnets we discussed today I wanted to share

O me, what eyes hath Love put in my head,
Which have no correspondence with true sight!
Or, if they have, where is my judgment fled,
That censures falsely what they see aright?
If that be fair whereon my false eyes dote,
What means the world to say it is not so?
If it be not, then love doth well denote
Love's eye is not so true as all men's 'No.'
How can it? O, how can Love's eye be true,
That is so vex'd with watching and with tears?
No marvel then, though I mistake my view;
The sun itself sees not till heaven clears.
O cunning Love! with tears thou keep'st me blind,
Lest eyes well-seeing thy foul faults should find.

Jay Sean’s “I wont’tell” is my opinion the best do far..and he sings about Gemini ladies..ahh

when sawaariya means "wanna die " :)

2007-10-30T01:22:00.000-07:00

Have I mentioned I hate the elang module ..allophones , morphemes affixation , suffixation , and phonology {which happens to be really embarrassing to study in public because every time I go “oo aa ee ae “everyone stares..}

I watched The number 23 last week and Jim Carrey was spectacular.

Sunday was super fun.I finally managed to meet up with my Charlie’s angles clan and it was worth it.I don’t know how they always manage to make me laugh so much. And I am very angry with them lot for taking away my share of Malayalee guys, now I have to go find myself a real true blooded tamil boyfriend to balance it all up {winks}
Thing about this group is that we have no problem catching up from where we stopped so there’s no need for awkward silences or anything of that sort and I love that.

I cant wait to hang out with them again..

And hopefully before Shobi{sumalima..lol} goes we’ll be able to have a sleep over : )

******Everyone BETTER make it this time round or else..grrrr******

It’s cape town this year..hoorah

ahh those days..

2007-10-25T08:22:00.000-07:00

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

This song brings back so much..

I miss you lot..

2007-10-23T05:01:00.000-07:00

OK i take back all that i said

It's not that bad..infact,it's not bad at all

: )

Right now there's only one person who can make go weak in my knees..

the one where i get ANGRY!!

2007-10-22T08:42:00.000-07:00

I am close to freaking out but I am hell bent not getting anywhere close to doing that.I didn’t work the last 5 years of my ass off to get here to whine.

Then again I am really stressed and I need to vent it all out..

I think my yogs summed it all best when she said “Welcome to NUS”

But guess what? I refuse to give in{evil laughter}

These next 2 weeks are going to be crazy but thankfully I have a meeting with gal pals..(Crosses fingers}

And I have a message for a certain someone who lacks terribly in the area of individuality..
I am sorry I make you feel completely insecure but that does not give you the right to live off me. So stop imitating copying and following me in everything you do. Your shallowness is disgusting. You trying to be someone else is pathetic. It’s sad that after 20 years you are still unable to accept yourself. What makes it even more embarrassing for me and you is the fact that I really know who and what type of person you really are. So all this “hoity toity” nonsense makes you look really dumb. In short, GET A LIFE!

..

2007-10-16T08:05:00.000-07:00

Soci has opened my eyes in more ways than one. I have learnt to see beyond issues otherwise taken for granted. If nothing else, I have learnt to be more liberal with my thoughts.

All my subjects are under control and the only thing I cannot stand is Eng lang..ahhh yucks(*100) Anyhoo, its only a few more weeks and I’ll be done with it. “Suck it up Shalini”

I found the best place to ogle…The library is a super awesome place..{evil laugh}

YAY! Thursday is coming…

My poor busted knee wants to rest..

turn the lights down low..touch my soul

2007-10-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

It was out on October 12 as promised..{runs around screaming in high pitched girl's voice}

The video is super corny but aiyah i like him lah :)so I dont want to be so harsh.It feels like yesterday that i had my brother and his friends tag along just so i could see Jay Sean.I still dont know how they managed to tolerate loud screaming girls{me included}{smiles}

"There is a moment
there is a movement -
there is dance"

saved

2007-10-09T07:51:00.000-07:00

" Are you going to hell?"

And all this came about from reading one Love poem..and to think i still have another 39 to get through..hehehe

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

The one with the random one-liners

2007-10-05T20:49:00.000-07:00

I am sick

I need clarity.

My body needs rest

I find it incredibly cute that my mom has taken a 3 day trip to Malaysia with her besties : )

I need and want to take things slow..

Happy Birthday to my 2 Brothers!!!

Time to stoooody…

Currently listening to : Jay Sean and Thara “M.U.R.D.E.R”
P.S.Song’s kinda crappy : (

5 years and counting..

2007-09-29T20:14:00.000-07:00

I love my dancing dolls...

i know they WILL always BE there for me..

It's really sad that the bday girl wasn't in any of the pics..haha

Movie time

2007-09-23T00:23:00.000-07:00

I wanted to see a movie really badly and guess what I actually got to see 2..whoo hooo!!!

The first one was a tamil movie Kiridum.I thought it was quite alright actually not too overdone.I did not manage to catch the original Malayalam version so I guess there was no expectations on this one.

The 2nd one is something I cannot stop singing praises about. If you haven’t already seen it, you GOT to catch “Fracture”. It was awesome I tell you. I am overtly in love with this movie. Oh and by the way Ryan Gosling looks SUPER SLICK :) and he managed to do rather well against a force like Anthony Hopkins. My parents found a little too heavy with dialogue. I however thought that was the best part. It kept me so thoroughly engaged. So go watch FRACTURE…super super awesome
I’ve added a trailer to the movie so enjoy this little sneak peak.

I think i'll go watch it again :)

dum dee

2007-09-21T08:02:00.000-07:00

It’s been an extremely tiring week. I’ve been sleeping for like a hours every day. Anyways right now I really want to watch a movie. Thank God I have my sun meeting with my gals to look forward too. Can I just say that right now I am very contented with my life :)

I don’t know what to blog about so I’ll just post pictures…

Yatra 2

NUS Dance reflections

lets ride on my titanic baby

2007-09-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

So many good looking guys so little time..sigh

I look forward to south asian lectures for one reason and one reason only:)

happy dance

2007-09-07T21:09:00.000-07:00

The Office IS BACK!!! YAY!

madness and despair

2007-08-31T06:32:00.000-07:00

So it’s been officially 3 weeks since I’ve started my sem.It’s fun actually. I never though I would say this but I kind of enjoy studying especially when it comes to the readings. You never realise how you little you know about anything till you begin or at least try to conquer the readings. Thankfully I don’t have a problem with all the ultra long readings since hist and lit in JC already thought me to deal with it.

Many mates I know are or rather have decided to major in Econs and I have nothing but respect for them. I don’t know how anyone can ever have patience with and for a subject like that. Econs was the bane of me in JC and I swore never to have anything to do with that subject ever again, then again I swore to never do maths after sec sch and still ended up doing it in JC and that too BY CHOICE. It was torture. Okay maybe I am overdoing it, after all I did get pretty decent grade for it. But still, like my darling most dear tutor {who had a special spot for “sha” ..wahaha..i was the only one he very sweetly nicknamed much to the disappointment of my other girls..hahahaha} said “Economics is simply common sense made complex” So to anyone who has or will be reading this in Uni “kudos” to you. You will always have me in awe :) That includes you shozidoo [winks}

Mer has asked me to go with her to catch a glimpse of the Heroes cast but I have declined for 2 reasons. Firstly because I have been traumatised after the Jay Sean
thingy. I have a phobia of stampedes :) Secondly and the most reasonable one would be that I have to visit my dance mate who recently become a mother..Whoooo Hoooo..I can’t wait to see the “little un”

I love my dogs…

movie time

2007-08-18T05:07:00.000-07:00

LOL!!!

The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death

2007-08-17T02:30:00.000-07:00

RR’s “The project” come to me…

Completed reading:
Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows

I really want to watch Evan Almighty and Licence to Wed… two of my favourites
Steve Carell and John Krasinski..whoo hooo

Night rain

2007-08-14T08:47:00.000-07:00

I finally got all my modules !!!!!This whole bidding system is a real headache. I was outbid thrice and after the 2nd time it can get really stressful. The whole wait and see scenario does not sit well with me. Anyways I got what I wanted so it does not really matter anymore {at least until the next sem}
My 5 modules this sem will be
English literature
English language,
Sociology
South Asian Studies and
a Singapore studies module

One thing I hate about going back to school is the whole orientation process. YUCKS!!!Its such a drag. Then again what else can I expect after 8 months of whoo hooing. Anyways I reckon I should be settled down in about a month or so.

Oh and by the way,NUS has the most coolest vending machines around..hehe :)

Happy Birthday to

MY MOTHER!!

beep

2007-08-03T01:26:00.000-07:00

Shalini, you'll make a difference when it comes to Animal Rights With a large number of animals facing extinction and many other problems in today's rapidly changing world, they need our help more than ever. A sweet and kindhearted soul like you sounds just right for the job.
Compassionate and thoughtful, you've got a big heart and are willing to go the distance to help those you love no matter what species they're from.

Shalini, your celebrity soul mate is someone who's Indie You're probably not one to take the path most traveled. In fact, an independent spirit like you would much rather carve out your own special niche. So it's only natural that your romantic match would be required to do the same.

Someone who's unique, intelligent, maybe a bit serious and brooding is right for the part. An indie actor like Johnny Depp seems best suited for that role. And it only makes sense that you'd rather have your rendezvous at places that are under the radar — just like you!

Haha..if its going to be J.Depp ,i sure dont mind!!

I really hope my bid turns out a success...5 more hours before i find out

Walking a tightrope

2007-07-28T03:08:00.000-07:00

Recently read:

"This title is a collection of short stories by some of Britain's top Asian writers - many of them writing for teenagers for the first time. Authors include: Jamila Gavin, Romesh Gunesekera, Bali Rai, Farrukh Dhondy, Shyama Perera, Preethi Nair, Rukhsana Ahmad, Aamer Hussein and more"

Brilliant !

To all my mates who have already started their new term in Uni,ALL THE VERY BEST!! Hope to have a blast at the next meet up.C u guys soon:}

brudder

2007-07-25T08:12:00.000-07:00

My dear brother has left again and for some weird reason I am missing him more than ever. Maybe it’s because it’s the first time in a looong time we haven’t had anything to fight about.
My eldest bro is someone I honestly look up to in everyway possible. He’s everything you want to be{or at least I want to be} Intelligence{massive amount} ,charm{as proven by the number of gals who like to hang around him} and the softest heart hidden within the very manly front he personifies, did I mention he’s smart. He can strike up a conversation about anything under the sun and I mean absolutely anything. He’s also one of the reasons I completely “pooh –poohed” the idea of reading law at Uni despite my mom pushing me slightly in that direction. I can never do what he’s doing period. This does not mean I am complete crap and useless. I am completely aware of the upper hand I ALWAYS seem to have when it comes to having an argument with him .
The house is dreadfully quiet and there is no one I can nag or yell at.
Anyhoo,I wish him all the very BEST. Go break a leg etta! And if you are by any chance reading this{you are quite a snooper}, DO NOT mention about this to me because I’ll just feel really awkward and I’ll just delete this whole entry and go on a crazy rampage. And you know you don’t want to see that.

By the way I love my second brother equally as much. He’s at home a lot more so I don’t really get a chance to miss him. The 2nd is one lad that puts “awe” in “awesome”.

Recently read:
Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier
LOVED it and it’s completely HILARIOUS.

ARUN ARUN ARUN!

dum dee

2007-07-24T05:53:00.000-07:00

Nikki now knows my deepest most inner secret{shy laugh}

ARUN ARUN ARUN!!!

The croc who turned into a bitch

2007-07-19T23:43:00.001-07:00

I intend to FULLY slack for the next 3 weeks.

Completed reads

I am on a F R I E N D S marathon and i am LOVING IT

"For you, a thousand times over"

2007-06-29T00:10:00.000-07:00

Finished reading
THE KITE RUNNER by Khaled Hosseini

Loved every bit of it.

Last movie watched
Metro by Anurag Basu

Not too shabby.Quite good actually.Love the cast and the music and not to forget my eye candy was too cute.
I enjoy watching movies where everyone is connected to each other in some way.It’s all about the circle innit..

GO SHALINI!!

2007-06-18T00:39:00.000-07:00

Watch “On the lot”!!!
Go SHALINI!!I love the way they pronounce my name**swoons**

I have a sudden STRONG urge to watch Dil Chataa Hai.Hmmm i wonder why..{smiles}

Love to Love

2007-06-10T23:13:00.000-07:00

I would like to share this quote..

"To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget." - Arundhati Roy {come September}

"we're not ok"

2007-06-04T04:16:00.000-07:00

I hope my smile
can distract you
I hope my fists
can fight for two
So it never has to show
And you'll never know

I hope my love
can blind you
I hope my arms
can bind you
So you'll never have to see
What we've grown to be

One may think
we're alright
But we need pills
to sleep at night
We need lies
to make it through the day
We're not ok

One may think
we're doing fine
But if I had to lay it on the line
We're losing ground
with every passing day
We're not ok

But that's one thing
I would never
One thing I would never
That's one thing
I would never say to you

I LOVE the lyrics!!

-The Perishers

Seeking..

2007-05-31T04:52:00.001-07:00

I have been booked for another dance production or rather I have allowed myself to be booked. Rehearsals are pretty much everyday but hey who’s to complain? I have nothing to do anyways. Schools out which mean I have no relief teaching and the kid is off for a holiday so tutoring is in hold for awhile. So what better way to occupy myself than with exploring movements :}

To be an Indian outside of India. Something that every Singaporean Indian should relate to. Cultural identity is something that always intrigues me especially in this day and age where we call ourselves a cosmopolitan society. I have always separated cultural identity form individual identity. But I am starting to re think this division .Does not our own identity bear a resemblance to our culture? As I far as I {and only I} am concerned, we are very much in denial to what being Indian is, delusional in our own ideas of what representation of culture should be. So I ask myself what does it mean to be Indian? Does being Indian mean being able to speak my dialect? Does being Indian mean swearing by my masala, spicy hot and mouth watering cuisine not to mention savouring such scrumptious food with my fingers? Does being Indian mean religiously watching movies produced by the motherland? Does being Indian mean never being punctual to any occasion? Or Does being Indian mean respecting and representing my heritage to the best means possible? I never underwent an “identity crisis” per say but the questions seem incessant at present time. I don’t think this crisis has got to do with who I am like “identity crises” usually border but rather deals more with what I am. I am honestly struggling to find an answer but I doubt I’ll ever receive a textbook answer right away. It’s going to have to be a journey I take just like the journey my Indian forefathers took leaving their family and homeland making us all Indians outside India. All I can say for now is that I know I have a culture to be mighty proud off, meaningful traditions, breath taking architecture, amazing variations of movements in motion, a myriad of languages and exceptionally appealing mythology.

"Contrast"

2007-05-22T22:30:00.000-07:00

All hail Rani akka

Candido

Groupies

Varriar Look{winks}

I would put up the pics of the 2nd costume change but someone's a tad bit shy so i've decided to spare you the public scrutiny{hehe}

I LOVE this song for soo many reasons{smiles]

When it becomes more than just entertainment..

2007-05-22T00:44:00.000-07:00

The show is finally over.6 months of intense and tiring preparation has most definitely paid off. The start to this show wasn’t quite all hunky-dory for my class. We were completely forced out of our very well-crafted comfort zone and made to experiment with different dance genres we never ever thought of doing. I still cannot believe it’s over. My Tuesday and Thursday evenings are going to feel so awkward without hearing the classical songs and the chatter of highly excitable yet VERY tired girls.

It is indeed major productions like these that really make you into a better dancer and a better person. I say better dancer because everyone knows the more you put yourself on stage the more confident and stunning performer you become. I say better person because you are forced to deal with people you have no liking for {which makes you more patient ...winks} basically it is a good lesson on people skills. And the best thing of all is the strengthening or forming of friendships with the people you really love. I must say I have the best class ever. We girls have been through a lot {u know what I mean!!} and at the end of it all most definitely come out stronger. I am extremely proud of all of you. Well done ladies!!

Due to the extremely busy and hectic past month, I have been unable to get 6 hours of daily shut eye DESPITE being on holidays.{Honestly, I cannot remember the last time I was home before 10}Thus I have taken the liberty of pigging out today till 6.30p.m.{I even told my mom to turn down whichever school calls me today}And I have had the best day ever. I have been sleeping the whole day and I feel good. The eyes are still tired though, after the 2 day contact lenses stint.

I have finally mustered enough courage to read the original classic version of Jane Eyre. I say “courage” because I have been sooo scared of reading such heavy work of literature all by myself. It was a birthday present for my 15th which I have yet to venture into until 2 weeks ago. And My oh my do I looove this book.

It sucks to be the only child..i miss my 2 annoying brothers..

random part 2

2007-05-09T23:25:00.000-07:00

I have a strong urge to delete my friendster account. The only reason its still there is because that’s the only way for me to communicate with my dear Aussie neighbours.

I invigilated my 1st exam today. Whoo hoo!!Its not that fun though. I finally understand why my JC tutors came up with very interesting erm.. ”experiments” to amuse themselves with while invigilation. Being in a school so much makes me miss it so much. I reckon this feeling will be very much regretted in about 6 month’s time.

I get Goosebumps every single time I see my dance teacher perform.She’s such an inspiration.

Nothing else matters when i am with these girls{1/2 of them are not in the pic}

Crocs rule :)

2007-04-22T07:11:00.001-07:00

I absolutely enjoy reading Jenadas Devan’s articles every Sunday. I am a big fan of his weekly writings.

I don’t feel like blogging.

Inside myself is a place where I live alone
And that’s where you renew your springs
That never dry up
-Pearl s Buck

I can't think of a title{part 1}

2007-04-09T08:14:00.000-07:00

I need a crash course to understand army lingo. I get lost when my male friends start talking. Anyways,the past week has been pretty hectic and thus a Saturday was a “must have fun” day for me.
I finally got to meet some girlies after lunch and we shared very interesting conversation topics. After which, I spent the evening with Latha and Shobzi.As usual it was heaps fun hanging out with them. The TP show was not too bad. I sincerely appreciate any type of stage production because I know the amount of effort, teamwork and commitment that goes into producing it especially if it is coordinated by students. Thank god for lit production. I also don’t get why people like to walk off without staying for credits, something I find very rude and sickening. I mean you have already warmed your ass for the past few hours, would it hurt to stay a few more minutes to appreciate and acknowledge the people who have amused you?

I have made my mom promise me my holiday at the end of the year even if it means I have to go myself. And it better not be Australia or India{ As much as i love these 2 countries,I’ve been there just toooo many times }I don’t have that many years worth of free tickets left and I plan to make full use of every one that’s left.

My Gemini twin??

My hols

X-mas lightings

The aunt who over-feeds me

At the Winery with the cussies and lady Serafino{the 1st pure Italian family i know and love}

View from the top

The best part

I am too lazy to upload the rest and i intend to have an early night..

Finally

2007-04-05T23:10:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe I spent almost a whole day at the Aussie High Comm..Not my idea of fun really.

I finally got to watch The Namesake!!!{runs screaming} I ‘ve been waiting really long to catch the film adaptation since I read the book. Honestly , those who read the book would probably be a little disappointed. The book was way better and expectedly they cut a whole LOT. All the tiny yet poignant moments were lost. Nonetheless Mira Nair did a great job. The basic essence of the book was still captured. And of course, Kal Penn was the bomb. After watching him tackle humour, it’s a bit erm.. interesting to watch him get serious. I started giggling the minute he appeared on screen, he’s just sooo furrrnny.I have the biggest crush on him (and its not because of his looks) Tabu and Irfaan Khan also did a rather praiseworthy job. I hade FUN.A BIG thank you to xantac for tagging along. Now I want to see Freedom writers and Little Miss Sunshine.

I love my dogs
I cant seem to get “give it to me” by Nelly ,JT and Timbaland out of my head.
Let the PARTY begin!!!

Happy Birthday to Ah fawn and chand!!

Nam-a-sake

2007-04-01T05:25:00.000-07:00

How long more am I to wait?

I think therefore I am

2007-03-30T01:12:00.000-07:00

Watching Supernanny makes me a tad bit angry sometimes. Why on earth do parents not slap their kids for calling them “you fat bitch”.I know I would.

Are having evil thoughts any superior than committing the very deed itself?
The way I look at it, both are equally undesirable. Like Rene Descartes very wisely said 'I think therefore I am’. The fact that we have consciously allowed such thoughts to develop makes us as guilty as someone who has physically carried out that thought. Whatever the mind can conceive, the will can achieve. As far as I am concerned, there is only a slight nuance of variation. It all comes down to physically carrying out “the” deed.

Actually, come to think of it takes more guts to actually perform the evil deed. No really, I mean the reason we think and not do a rather wrongful deed is simply {maybe not so simply} because we lack the courage to challenge our moral compass. More like fear of the ramification(s) prevents us from undertaking action. Cowardice in this case is a GOOD thing.

There’s always two ways of looking at things. A very simplified example would be the “glass halve empty or halve full” approach. You decide how you want to look at it.

Never again

2007-03-28T20:38:00.000-07:00

I FINALLY got to read Night by Elie Wiesal. It is very hard for anyone who has not survived the Holocaust to relate and understand the essentials of his experiences and I honestly hope no one or no race ever goes through such excruciating torture. Never again.

This is a short excerpt form the preface

"For the survivor who chooses to testify, it is clear: his duty is to bear witness for the dead and for the living. He has no right to deprive future generations of a past that belongs to our collective memory. To forget would be not only dangerous but offensive; to forget the dead would be akin to killing them a second time.
SOMETIMES I AM ASKED if I know “the response to Auschwitz”; I answer that not only do I not know it, but that I don’t even know if a tragedy of this magnitude has a response. What I do know is that there is “response” in responsibility. When we speak of this era of evil and darkness, so close and yet so distant, “responsibility” is the key word.

The witness has forced himself to testify. For the youth of today, for the children who will be born tomorrow. He does not want his past to become their future."

I also read the play Talaq by Elangovan and I can see why it created quite a{an unnecessary} stir .I must applaud the man’s audacity for writing and staging such a play. We need more creative individuals like him around.

Random

I finally mustered enough courage to get contact lenses.My JC and close mates will know well enough about my issue with lenses so it is quite a shocker for them and myself too.

I decided to do something completely random with myself so I got my ears pierced for the second time. This is what happens when you become too bored ,you start thinking too much and too randomly.

And I have been itching to get myself tattooed after watching too much Miami Ink.My parents would probably go berserk{understatement} but Haha we’ll see how that comes along.

Always

2007-03-21T00:38:00.000-07:00

{Ahhh remembers and swoons..}

We owe alot more than we think..

2007-03-20T03:44:00.000-07:00

So I have finished reading Listening to Letter from America by Kua Ee Hock and I thought the book was not too bad. It’s not bestseller material neither is it any where near P- Jeyaretnam’s literary standard but it’s a good read and I appreciate the book.
Honestly , I fear old age more than death. The whole idea of not being able to do what you used to do, visiting the doctor every other month, swallowing pills of every colour and every size is a very daunting thought for me. I mean of course not all old people end up like that. I have a grandaunt who is 91 this year, eats everything she wants with no restrictions and heck she even kicks my brother and my butt at scrabble {GOD bless her}
I think my greatest worry about growing old would have to be the fear of being lost and the feeling of being lonely. You look at the way technology is advancing, keeping up with it now itself is a major headache for us. Then there’s the whole issue of being resistant and reluctant to change. I was talking about this to a mate who dismissed everything I said. Apparently I am too young to be thinking about this and I think I agree with him. Anyways, Vasantam Central is airing a programme very appropriately titled Marantha Kathai{ translated:Forgotten stories}From the looks of the trailer I think it basically pays homage to our senior citizens who have also been responsible for shaping our nation in more ways than one. Yes I do watch vasantham and I am not ashamed to admit it unlike certain people who say they” don’t watch local programmes especially the Indian ones” I actually think local Indian drama productions are improving. At least you don’t see drug addicts, anjadi kuppehs and wailing overdramatic family members anymore..

Random
I have too many things this month.

God bless ARTS CENTRAL…

I just read TODAY ,SRT might be staging King Lear. It's time for an all "lity" outing again..Must go must go..

Happy birthday Vignesh! 14 already?!. Oh how I miss the cute little thumb sucking annoying prick.{smiles..}

Its off to SIA sports club tomorrow. I love swimming.

I see it feelingly

2007-03-13T21:52:00.000-07:00

I love my dance girls. They are the best bunch of people to hang out with and we had a blast of a time yesterday. For once we really had the time and privilege to talk about things other than choreography and body aches. I look forward to next 3 days only because I know how fun it’s gonna get {smiles }A bunch of sari clad girls can cause more damage than you think{**winks**}

Speaking of dance, there’s been a lot of misapprehension over what really fusion and contemporary means.

Fusion is defined as
1. the act or process of fusing; the state of being fused.
2. that which is fused; the result of fusing: A ballet production is the fusion of many talents.

While contemporary is defined as
existing, occurring, or living at the same time; belonging to the same time: Newton's discovery of the calculus was contemporary with that of Leibniz.
2. of about the same age or date: a Georgian table with a contemporary wig stand.
3. of the present time; modern: a lecture on the contemporary novel.

There, now can people stop blindly using words especially when it comes to dance.

I just read in the papers that Amitabh Bachan will be playing Lear.
My reaction to be exact was ”NOOOOOOOOOOO”
Dad: ”what happened?”
Me: ”Amitabh bachan is going to play Lear”
Dad :”...and he’ll do a great job, he pulled off Black, playing a sad old man should be no problem”
Me:” First of all, I don’t think sad is a word you want to use to describe Lear and secondly Lear is too good a play to mess around with, you just cannot afford to Bollyify it. Thirdly, even if he plays Lear, who’s going to be Cordelia or Edgar or even Goneril? You cant have just anyone play those parts..”
Dad:” you leave that kind of brainstorming to the casting directors. Now just finish your breakfast.”

Out of all the lit texts I’ve done, I am extremely protective of Lear. It’s the most simple yet extremely complex text in nature. Every lit student’s best dream and worst nightmare in one play. It’s one heck of an emotional and intellectual rollercoaster ride too.

A:”There’s a reason to why I asked you to come volunteer. There’s more to be being a good dancer than just doing your item to perfection on stage and walking off .This is something you have to learn by yourself.”

How true..I am starting to see what she means.

tu recuerdo

2007-03-12T07:10:00.000-07:00

I have no freaking idea what the song is about. But who cares, I just like the way it sounds.
Ricky Martin Unplugged on MTV was super fun to watch. He’s got fantastic energy and the songs sounded great.{I use sounded because like I said I have no idea what he was singing}And of course he looks good.

I miss The office
I love Hallmark for airing the re-runs of ER .
What now Dr Ross?and what will my favourite Dr Carter do without his house?
I love ER..whoo hoo
I need to buy scrabble

By the way, I am still extremely bored..

22 questions ,thanks to di

2007-03-11T01:30:00.000-08:00

1)What are you doing?
Chatting with my primary school friend.Hi sen{**waves**}

2)Last meal you had?
Rice with chicken curry and Prawn sambal

3}The song you are currently listening to is
Rhagav’s So confused..

4}The last television programme you saw was
Tonight show with Jay Leno

5} The most recent movie you watched
Happy Feet{ there’s a lot more to it than dancing penguins}

6}Last time you laughed
2 hours ago at dance class

7)Do you believe in blind love ?
Nope

8}Utopian world,Extinct or in existence ?
Who you kidding.. Definitely extinct. Cynical I know but hey..

9}Last person to email you?
My secondary school teacher

10}Last person to text you?
Sumi

11}Novels or poems?
Ooohh…tough one..erm I will have to go with poems.

12}One deceased celebrity you would like to meet
Anna Nicole Smith..hahaha.. ..
Seriously though I think, Margaret Tatcher

13}You love?
Myself

14)The last time you danced at a club
Bhangra night

15)Last alcohol drink
I don’t drink

16}You broke up with your ex because
The f***er was being such an ass
hahahaha.. I never had anyone to break up with..smiles

17}The last person you kissed
It’s not a person but if you really want to know it was my dogs

18)You miss
School..i want to go back to jc now!

19}In 2 years time you’ll be
Studying

20)The last time you were on stage and the next time you’ll be on stage
Seesh this is soo random..Last time erm..April 2006 and Next time would be May 2007.

21}Why this survey?
Because I AM BORED!

22}Parting words..
Erm..have a nice day and CROCS RULE!!

LAA DEE DAA

Teacher teacher

2007-03-08T03:25:00.000-08:00

Kids are not cutie wootsy anymore. Not especially if they are in primary 3 and above. Tiny little pricks. I have to be thankful, I’ve been able to “handle” the brats that have been thrust at me.I must say though, that there are there erm..exceptional sweethearts who are just the most angelic students{or at least appear to be}

My poor little{ok not little} dog has been limping the past few days. My cousin called me mean for saying this but I’ll still say it anyway, it’s really cute to watch him limp.
I need to get that fatty to exercise more.

It’s one crazy weekend ahead..BUSY BUSY BUSY

Currently reading
Listening to Letter from America by Kua Ee Heok

Nothing like a good dose of local literature

However,for practical purposes,in a hopelessly practical world....

2007-03-06T03:31:00.000-08:00

“They all broke the rules. They all crossed into forbidden territory. They all tampered with the laws that lay down who should be loved and how. And how much. “

This is by far the best book I have read .Her writing style, choice of words and a lot more aspects of this book are flawless. I have a special attachment to this book for many reasons and I thoroughly enjoyed my foray into my “grandmother’s” land through this novel.

I always believed that a good book like many other things in life is held to very subjective opinions. As they say “One man’s meat another man’s poison”To read this book or not is completely up to your own discretion.

“It is rare to find a book that so effectively cuts through the clothes of nationality, caste and religion to reveal the bare bones of humanity. A sensational novel”
-Daily telegraph

Random
The whole problem with media is that they tend to over sensationalise issues.

L”hey sha,you should watch the arena and observe a particular judge properly”

Me: ‘why would I want to do that?”

L:” One of them MIGHT actually be your future lecturer”

Brilliant.

Bling Bling and Bling Bang

2007-03-04T00:19:00.000-08:00

I finally got to see Blood Diamond, thanks to my “bru”

Powerful movie I must say. Brilliant.
Watch it if you have the time. CNN will also be showing a special feature on conflict diamonds, which should be informative, interesting and watch-worthy.

Happy Birthday Shobi!

The one where i get dramatic..

2007-03-02T20:17:00.000-08:00

I am still reeling from my celebratory mood but for the sake of my people who have asked me to blog about my day, I shall do it.
I hold the record in my class for not crying the whole 1.5 years in school. Yes as surprising as that sounds, I was always the one who ended up hugging crying mates and to a certain extent literally “lending” my shoulder to my girl friends. But I broke this record yesterday by crying like a baby except this time it was tears of joy. Yes,” tears of joy” was a phrase I often used in my essays in secondary school, I never understood or experienced what it really meant or felt like till yesterday. And you know what it is the BEST feeling ever!

I woke up last morning hoping I could freeze time like Hiro Nakamura.I refused to get out of bed and face what was about to be results that could potentially “shape” my life. Honestly, this was it. Either I made it or I didn’t. And I desperately hoped that my 1.5 years would not go to waste. I spent the whole morning worrying myself to the limit and thinking of all worst possible circumstances that could possibly result. The ride to school was the longest 15 minutes of my entire life and the walk into the hall was even worse. Every step forward made me think of taking 2 steps back. I met a few of my fellow mates and walked in with them.The first girl we came across ran out crying and we silently looked at each other and smiled. I had to break the silence and say my trademark phrase” Don’t worry. You’ll be fine” {I’ve been telling this to every classmate of mine, irony being I was equally worried}

So I finally reached the table that had A4 plastered on it with loads of juniors watching from the gallery,nosy students poking into your results even before you get it,teachers walking around ready to hug those who did well and console those who did not.One by one my classmates got their results and they walked away.Everyone did well,not just what they wanted.Then it was my turn and I went.My form teacher gave me her stoic look and handed me my folder.The minute I saw it ,I let out a little yelp and cried. “You deserve it, now go apply for uni”is what I got back. I swear that was the best feeling ever. It was just too overwhelming for me. The journey this far has been anything but easy and I am happy I did what I did.

I was looked down upon because I was a normal academic student.People saw me inferior to them.”Stupid” normal student in a “lousy” neighbourhood school is what someone ,a family member to be exact,once refered to me as.And I decided then,if there was anything I had to do was to not only prove myself but to prove in general that yes we take an extra year but give us a chance we will outshine you.Even certain teachers in secondary school told me to opt for a ploy diploma instead of a JC cert because chances of me scoring good grades will be low.In JC they told me that for those with the aggregate of 17 to 20,NUS will be out of reach.

What I want to say is simply, never write someone off. Some people start off strong and fall, like the family member who called me stupid, some people start off slow but catch up before you know it. Everyone is worth giving a chance and never never look down on anyone. It does not matter which school one ends up in. Raffles or Loyang ,Hwa Chong or Serangoon.We all have what it takes it’s just a matter of how bad we want it .Today I am proud to say I was in the Normal Academic stream,I am proud to say I was in Loyang, I am proud to say I made it in SR.All these places have given me more than any top class school could have ever given me.

A big shout out to all my teachers in sec sch ,my tutors in JC , Diana and Jennifer.

I honestly couldn’t have done it without my family and their support. My success is theirs as much as it is mine.

To all those who looked down on me, thank you. You pushed me and gave me reason to work myself.

p.s GOD thanks for sticking to our little agreement {winks..} I owe you big time.

Special mention to my mates for standing by me, and my sec school clique who have seen me through from the start.

STATISTICS DOES NOT DEFINE ME.THEY NEVER HAVE AND NEVER WILL!

WHOO HOOO!!!

Whoopiee do daa

2007-03-02T00:57:00.000-08:00

who said dreams dont come true?

Mine just did!!!!

Bring on the party caps ,lest celebrate the weekend away!!!

There's no stopping me now baby...

"sha loves you"

When Kela silk makes you famous...

2007-02-25T01:08:00.000-08:00

So I spent my lonely weekend watching movies. Guru my friend, is worth the watch. It’s just movies like these that show you 2 things a) Indian cinema has HOPE and can produce meaningful movies without too much of dramatics and b)Mani Ratnam is the best for a reason. His movies are the only ones that have become a must watch and I think he gives all the other wannabe director/producers a run for their money. From Thalapathi to Roja to Yuva/Aayutha Erathu,he’s got the magic happening and guru is just another he can add to his list to accomplishments. I also appreciate the way he has managed to tell the story without taking sides. Abishek Bachan kicked some major chaadi and come to think of it no one could have pulled off a better Gurukant Desai. Special credit must be given to Madhavan. Despite his very limited time on screen he still has a major impact on the audience and the movie as a whole, just like his flawless performance in RDB.This man is one example to show that good looks and a hot body alone does not define a good actor.

I’ll leave you with bits of review that holds my opinions too.

“The area where Rathnam triumphs the most is his objective viewpoint while handling the context of Gurukant Desai’s success. He doesn’t justify or romanticizes the wrong means employed by Guru in moving up. And the final picture that emanates is that of a man who rose to the top to fall and then rise again. But he is not all black. Or all white. He has shades of grey with warts of blemishes. Yet his basic intentions are honest.
Guru’ is a film beyond Box Office. It’s a film which comes your way once in a life time. Not everybody shall like it. For it’s not traditional entertainment. But if cinema is more than mere fun for you, then you shall surely treasure ‘Guru’. For a long time to come. “

Like my aunt said “Only intelligent people will be able to appreciate Guru”

I do not think well of plagiarism only because I think its absolutely disgusting to rip off someone else’s piece and shamelessly put your name under it.{See PW does much more good than you’d think..winks}Hence I am letting you know that Faridoon Shahryar is the proud owner of the review i lifted.

Random
I know it’s a breech of professionalism but, the PE teacher in the primary school I am now in ,is unbearably cute{smiles..}

My parents are back..yippiee..and I got a lot of pewasents.

I love Sundays because my ego gets fed without fail.{grins}

Save the cheerleader, Save the world

2007-02-22T03:31:00.000-08:00

My tv routine revolves around

Heroes{i'm at epi 7...whoo hooo.Move over Prison Break come on over Heroes}

E.R

The office.{I LOVE STEVE CARELL}

Miami Ink

Hardtalk

and anything else that captivates me

i miss me parents

Tikki 3 words{add up to a question}
Wot a Diva?
Hehe..swoons

When you had your eyes on me

2007-02-19T02:47:00.000-08:00

Why I know I’ve got the best brothers in the world..

My eldest one told me about the Jay sean thingy a month before it even happened and tried to get special passes for me to meet him plus he had to tolerate all my bickering.

My second brother completely floored me when he decided himself to take me. I honestly pitied him and his other male friends who had to wait for me to see a brit Indian guy they care nuts about plus tolerate pushing and screaming girls. That was by far the sweetest thing my bro has ever done for me especially since he hates things like these.

I know I’m not the best sister at times and I can be extremely annoying.And yes I do take advantage of them sometimes {which I shouldn’t be doing} but I really do appreciate everything these 2 boys have done for me throughout these 19 years and 2 months. And although I don’t say it enough I love them..
Ok enough of all the emo crap

Moving on to the show..it was “mental”{a word he used to describe the show}A lot of screaming girls {A LOT} but it was fun. I managed to get right in front of the stage which meant yours truly did get a few glances from the man himself.He looked at me while singing ahhhhhhhhhhhh..{inside joke}
Wouldn’t have traded the night for anything else and thanks to all those who came with me. Now all I need to see is Rishi Rich.

I’ll leave with you with a few pics taken at Indochine.

Happy CNY to all my fwens.I miss you guys loads..

I find it rather interesting that there a lot more people eagerly awaiting my results when they have no right to be…

Ride it

2007-02-15T06:02:00.000-08:00

If i am happy enough this sunday i should be heading down to FC .I tell you the whole new look is WORKING!!

Anyways,ALL THE BEST to jes with your driving thingy.Now you can drive me around and a Special mention to Wika Gupta who gave me a VERY special V DAY present.I love you!!!

I am coming to get my "eyes on you"{i think}

Thou art to me a delicious torment-Ralph Waldo Emerson

2007-02-13T02:33:00.000-08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

-James Blunt

I know this is not the type of song anyone would want to hear on Valentine’s Day but I just love this song, James Blunt is “wikid”:)

I am not into these “DAY” celebrations {except birthdays or wedding anniversaries, they are the only ones that having meaning to them so yeah..} because honestly it’s all become too commercialised. But nonetheless, A very Happy Valentine’s Day to all.

I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
-When Harry Met Sally

You know, that moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy. And the only thing in focus is you and that person. And you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this gift. And you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that it will go away all at the same time.
- Never Been Kissed

On 3 everybody swoon together..1 2 3

I am hooked on to Miami Ink..

I'll be there for you like you've been there for me

2007-02-03T23:04:00.000-08:00

The meet up with shobi and latha went so well. I enjoy the friendship I share with them. I mean we hardly meet and even when we meet its only once in 3 to 4 months{sometimes more than that}yet we have no problem picking up from where we stopped. I honestly miss my secondary school days only for the fact that I don’t get to hang out much with these girls. I remember the horrible prefect meetings shobi,latha,rubi,bhavani and I had to sit through, the Tamil classes where we laughed and bitched more than studied and as latha very accurately pointed out ,us splitting in various directions the minute a certain teacher came. Man those were the days..

Anyhoo I loved our dinner outing. I never worry about food when I have Shobi with me{smiles}and Latha is such a joy to hang out with. We laughed and laughed and laughed and did I mention laughed.
Shobi if you reading this I want to do it again..so FUN

It’s just such a pity the entire jingbang couldn’t make it.

who needs a boyfriend when you have girlfriends like these?
God bless these gals

I need to go pack ,I’ll be off to KL in 3 hours time.

ALL THE BEST LIONS

comfortably numb

2007-02-01T19:27:00.000-08:00

Hello.
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?

Come on, now.
I hear youre feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.

Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts:
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I cant explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Ok.
Just a little pinprick.
Therell be no more
But you may feel a little sick.

Can you stand up?
I do believe its working. good.
Thatll keep you going for the show.
Come on its time to go.

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.

-pink floyd

When the lions roar

2007-01-27T16:49:00.000-08:00

3 cheers for our Lions!!!

Honestly a job well done.As agonising as the wait was,the results were well worth it.
I could even sense the tension in Sasikumar’s voice {smiles}
Like I told those at home watching the game with me, I have too weak a heart to deal with the tension surrounding penalty kicks, Which is why I think our lions and those who always step up to take these kicks indeed have real balls {pun intended}
Let me just say at this point that i do not pretend to be one of those girls who appear to understand everything about the game neither am I one of those local Singaporeans who condemn the Sleague or Singapore talent because watching white men from another continent play looks more watch worthy. I have always supported local talent and this time it’s no different and I am not ashamed to stand up for our local teams. Come on if its anything these guys need its our support and not criticism.
So whatever the results were or maybe, lets just keep them going and enough of the “Oh I don’t watch S league because they suck crap”
Because honestly no one appreciates an armchair critic.

Great job guys!!It’s kick ass time.

I watched WATER

Guess who’s flying down to come see me{widest grin ever}

erm..

2007-01-24T18:47:00.000-08:00

These full circle moments are getting a tad bit too freaky for me to handle.

The Oscar nominees are officially out and DiCaprio is in for best actor for the movie The Departed. I really hope he wins this. He kicked ass {literally and figuratively} in the movie. And Mark Wahlberg was sooo funny.

Laa dee daa..

I miss jc and my friends big time and a tiny part of me actually misses studying too.I miss memorising history dates and quotations ,I miss trying to decode all my lit authors intentions ,I miss having to read and re read my Econs notes. I actually miss school.

“When I was your age they would say, you could become cops or criminals.
What I’m saying is this when you are facing a loaded gun, what’s the difference?”

Next movie on the list would have to be Blood Diamond.

u laugh when its funny

2007-01-11T20:07:00.000-08:00

I loved this movie

looking

2007-01-11T19:30:00.000-08:00

And just when you thought Bush was under control, he does it again.18 000 more troops to be sent.. Holy mother of Krishna!
I feel a little sorry for TT Durai. No doubt what he did was wrong but the media publicity he gets.. .One can only imagine the toll it has on his family.

Anyways I never really got down to analysing how 2006 went and how I suppose 2007 would be.So I shall begin..

2006

I can’t quite remember how I even ushered in 2006.Damn
The school year began with LEAP camp and as usual it was another opportunity for a4 to gather and create ruckus. We were best CG after all..{smiles}
Exams, tests, exams,”get your shit together” motivational talks, exams and more tests.
Multiple student breakdowns {I was one of the very few who didn’t loose it}
Literature evenings {haaa memories..}
And finally the much awaited and equally dreaded A levels..
I realised as everyone does after the exam that all the hoo haa was not quite necessary. it was manageable.
Apart from that, my dance classes went fantastically well and I go fantastic news regarding dance as well.
As you can see, this was a year where my social interaction skills reached an all time zilch.
My Aussie trip{smiles for various reasons}

2007
What lies ahead..

My A levels results should be out in about 4to 8 weeks
My University education
My brother’s final year before he becomes a law graduate{one down}
My cussies wedding
2 dance shows
And lots more..I am just too lasy to analyse any further

Did I mention I LOVE The Office because I really DO..

Teri Masti.

D says:
Biz... IS BORING!
Shalini says:
excuse me BUT u dont have to tell ME about being BORED
Shalini says:
i think rite now i define the state of BOREDOM..

Yup i do..

i may be at Timbre sooner than i thought i would be

"Wife?What wife?I have no wife."

2007-01-10T20:46:00.000-08:00

Suddenly there is so much of hype surrounding The Arena.I must say I was ecstatic when I saw the trailer for this programme. It had like numerous clips of previous debate competitions and my UNCLE was in there. He represented Victoria at some national debate that was televised on telly a good 20 odd years ago. I think my granny might still have the tape though .Anyways I only managed to watch the last 30 minutes or so because I was busy doing something else{uh hum} and I am mighty impressed with Karthik from R.I..In my opinion he was the best speaker there, he was very articulate and it was very easy to understand him as compared to the others.

To Loyang:A job well done.

I and a friend were discussing general affairs when we got stuck at the topic of adultery. Apparently he knows this couple who recently separated {not “divorced”} because while the wife was in a foreign country the husband was busy “cosying” himself up to another younger prettier lady [what are the odds?] And now he completely regrets it and is desperately asking for{ yes you guessed it} a “second chance” According to him, it was a “mistake” and it was something he did not know how to and could not control{ so they say!}

I still don’t get why they do it. And by “they” I don’t just mean men I am fully aware of women cheating on their partners as well. So I asked why?My only typical and naïve reason is simply the fact that they are not getting were they signed up for. And I asked another friend why do you think people willing and consciously engage themselves in infidelity. Her answer was “maybe it’s just the thrill of doing something you know is wrong and getting away with it” Oh yes she would know wouldn’t she? Coming form a girl who has two timed many guys; I decide to accept her view. Her view was substantiated soon enough. I happened to watch Grey’s Anatomy last night and there was this intern {Grey}who questioned her superior if the only reason he kept coming back for one night flings was because of the “thrill chase” So there..
My aunty also let me in into the very shocking details of what goes on amongst married nurses and doctors in the hospital.

Is marriage still an institution?
I desperately hope so..

I'm an excellent housekeeper. Every time I get a divorce, I keep the house.
- Zsa Zsa Gabor

Love is blind and marriage is the institution for the blind.
- James Graham

"A good marriage is that in which each appoints the other guardian of his solitude."
-Rainer Maria Rilke

"There is no more lovely, friendly and charming relationship, communion or company than a good marriage."-Martin Luther

School's OUT

2007-01-08T19:30:00.000-08:00

Freshly starched blouses and skirts that refuse to sit in place.
Pure and untainted shoes, socks that embrace ankles
Brand new bags and ink filled stationary
Thick Shakespearian readings and
Commentary that makes you go giddy.
Tiny sized fonts that narrate Lenin’s treachery and Napoleon’s glory
Intimidating lecture periods that yearn to enlighten us with complex yet simple concepts
Single file rows and patriotic obligations
Assembly periods that provides one with the much needed cat nap
And provides undisturbed entrance into dreamland
Quizzes, tests and exams that makes your heart pound and sweat glands work overtime
Teachers who become the source for lunchtime gossip
Last but not least, friends that make your world go round and give you a reason to push

Something I am FINALLY done with after 13 years {for the time being at least} and something I am starting to miss..

Random..
I am in love and this time its with a guy who is at least 18000 KM away form me..damn the long distance. He comes complete with a Brit accent, just what I wanted..haaa

I am in the mood for Bhangara

I have a sudden urge to hang out at Timbre

The office is on tonight {whoo hoo}

Teri masti

hello

2007-01-05T08:53:00.000-08:00

I am back.

My holiday in Perth was FANTASTIC.I allowed myself to indulge in activities that I never would have tried down here. The best part of the entire trip would have to be Dirt biking at Landsaline,I kicked *** driving the four wheel. It was as the Aussies would say “wikid”{don’t ask me why they spell it like that}My uncle and Aunt also brought me to Burswood Casino.My oh my everything in there was like a scene out of the American series Las Vegas. And I totally get how some of the card games are played and I also tried my luck at some{which by the way didn’t turn up very lucky}I loved the ambiance there not to mention the super cute card dealers behind the counter and the good looking security guys {whoo hooo} The pub I went to was another cool place and their live music was “awesome” {another Aussie word}And I also tried my hand at fishing and as my luck would have it just when I started to steer our boat the damn motor had to crash and we were stranded in the middle of Australind. Despite having an airplane engineer and a car mechanic on board we had to end up getting help the old fashioned way by screaming and waving frantically and eventually getting towed by another boat. I met loads of “cool” people and made many new white friends .In short I truly enjoyed myself.

Oh and guess what movie they showed in the airplane…The Departed. It was fantastic. I would have liked to see more of Mark Wahlberg but nonetheless they rest of them were “****ing” good. No I did not curse on purpose if you had watched the movie you would know why I chose to use that word.

Having said that, nothing beats home. Singapore is still my favourite. I shall upload the pictures when time permits.

Random:
My family pictures which we got professionally taken turned out beautiful. My saree matched all the colours perfectly and I especially love the picture that had my 2 brothers’ stand behind me {double whoo hoo}

I am desperately craving 2point9.Please come down..

Happy 2007 people..
The best is yet to be..

Awww..i miss Mr Bhangraman and crew

2006-12-20T19:55:00.000-08:00

Merry Xmas everyone and a HAPPY NEW YEAR{in advance}

The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple.

2006-12-20T18:49:00.000-08:00

3 more days and I shall be in Australia. I FINALLY GOT Kiren Desai ‘s The Loss of Inheritance whoooopieeee!!! There’s just something rather exhilarating in reading the works of Indian authors. I find their writing style more enjoyable, and I find it thoroughly pleasing to read about confused people {inside joke} So to my dear brother who has already eyed my new prized possession..Get off my back! I am not giving it to you till I am done. Speaking of brother, my eldest has been working on a lot of interesting cases lately. He just finished assisting a murder case and is now assisting a defamation case. It’s so fun to hear the procedures or at least it sounds fun.

I recently read this article on the Pope’s comment and the whole forced debate that resulted after that {published in one of November issues of TIMES} Basically this article contained views of 2 prominent religious leaders. What I found interesting was that while on the surface everyone seemed acceptable to each others views there was still this subtle issue on who is right. What I found more interesting was that these views were not that of neutral parties but that of a Father and a Muslim research fellow at Oxford. And rightly so while the Father talked about what the Pope got right, the researcher talked about where the Pope is still in the dark.
This is what I think of this article. This continuous splitting debate on what is right, who is wrong does not solve anything, it just makes things worse. I totally understand the logical rational of publishing such 2 sided reports which is to allow readers to understand both sides and make an informed individual opinion. But what if you were a devout religionist isn’t it more likely that you would only accept a view that substantiates your religion and practices. So does that rectify the existing misunderstandings?
I just think its so sad that of all things humans have to fight over a divine power that has no solid physical presence. Why won’t anyone fight over the best solution to poverty or child prostitution?

Let me just say here that I am not ANTI anything. I follow Mother Theresa’s pursuit of PRO peace :}

"There is only one God and He is God to all; therefore it is important that everyone is seen as equal before God. I’ve always said we should help a Hindu become a better Hindu, a Muslim become a better Muslim, a Catholic become a better Catholic. "

"Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin."

Mother Theresa

Off to dance in 4 hours…

Promotion

2006-12-03T01:37:00.000-08:00

Jhumpa Lahiri+Kal Penn+Mira Nair+Movie
=whoopie

Finally Liverpool :)
Let us hope it will continue:):)

Currently craving:Blacforest ice-cream

Same wood different tree

2006-12-03T00:35:00.000-08:00

WhooHoo….I love my dance classes and I mean LOVE.If only everyday was a Sunday Yippie doo daa.By the way I found a few more reasons to be proud of my south Indian roots not that I am not already proud or anything.Courtesy to some interview ,I found out that John Abraham has got a bit of Malayalee blood in him and so does Vidya Balan and Arya{or Aryan}

Family: ”did u know john’s mallu?”
Me: ”I thought he’s Iranian Parsi or something like that. where did mallu”ness”come from?”
Famliy ”I don’t know.Read it in some magazine”
Mom: ”See Shalu..there’s still hope for you to find a good looking, well educated Mallu{and she laughs}
Me: ”Whatever ma!”

I knew my mother was joking anyways. Thank God I didn’t end up with typically Hindu/Indian parents. They give my space {though it’s not a lot..i am cool with it}and I give them reason to trust me{smiles..}

I have been thinking of turning vegan, after all the PETA readings I have been doing.
Not immediately though, I’ll need sometime but it shall happen one day or another.

This week is going to be pretty occupied. Fisrt there’s the packing that needs to be done for my 1st trip then there’s the SINDA volunteer programme, which I am heaps excited about. Hopefully everything works out well {fingers crossed}I also have to work on hunting down Anushka Shankar’s CD.By the way she was 2nd page cover for one of the October issues of TIMES magazine ..whoo hooo..

I also want to watch The Departed {I don’t mind watching the Chinese version as long as there’s subtitles}And I very very surprisingly turned down the offer of watching Dhoom2.If the 1st part is anything to be judged by the 2nd one’s going to be just as ridiculous.Hence I will not give up my Wed evening to watch that. Sorry Sara. Honestly it’s this kind of media time and attention that some movies get that deprive the good ones any recognition. No one gives a damn about fresh novel attempts like Mr and Mrs Ayer , Khakee , 15 Park Avenue {which was “literally” out of this world}, Phir Milenge,Mitr my friend. Then there are those who look down on Tamil movies because they don’t have the glamour and also because they don’t generate the media hype Bollywood movies do.Movies like Thalapathi{after 10 years and watching it 50 odd times I am still in love with it} Pitamagan,Pattiyal, Anbe Sivam ,Devar magan are equally fantastic.But no one cares about such production because its not as internationally acclaimed or because there’s no “hot”” good looking” artists to look at.

Change??

Time to go shopping at IKEA..

P E T A

2006-11-27T19:27:00.000-08:00

Please pay attention to the msg on his shirt as well{winks}

Behind the scenes, elephant trainer Tim Frisco instructs would-be trainers how to dominate elephants and make them perform circus tricks. “Sink that hook into ’em. When you hear that screaming, then you know you got their attention.” An elephant trumpets in agony as Frisco’s bullhook, with its sharp metal hook and spiked end, tears through her sensitive skin. Frisco, a Carson & Barnes elephant trainer, learned the trade from his father, a former trainer for Ringling Bros. and Barnum & Bailey Circus.The fact is, animals do not naturally ride bicycles, stand on their heads, balance on balls, or jump through rings of fire. To force them to perform these confusing and physically uncomfortable tricks, trainers use whips, tight collars, muzzles, electric prods, bullhooks, and other painful tools of the trade. We applaud trapeze artists, jugglers, clowns, tightrope walkers, and acrobats, but let’s leave animals in peace.-taken from peta's website

Lets leave these adorable creatures alone...