Death in itself is bad regardless of situation but when you have to go at such a young age that’s when it stinks terribly. See just last week after reading a very death –oriented depressing poem and thinking about it ,I had accepted death{at least I thought I did} I saw it as another part of life , like a rite of passage. The thing that bothered me was not the actual passing itself but rather the consequences it had on people after it. But now I don’t know how to accept it anymore. I just don’t see the sense in it all. I don’t blame GOD or anyone else for it {that’s a whole different issue} I realise that everyone has their time and their purpose in life. But how to do you cling on to that believe when you see a young teenager who hasn’t even seen or lived long enough to even figure out what life is or who he is pass on?
It does not make it any better that I have to now complete my lit text which also deals about death and love poem that deal with pain..
The part where I get emotional
After today, I know I have girls I can always fall back on. We may not always meet or talk but we will be there for each other. I am extremely proud, happy and most importantly grateful to have friends like them. I love you girls so much!
I have also made a promise to myself. A promise to let go of all grudges I have held against anyone this far. Life’s too short for me to be wasting time being angry and unhappy :) Things and sometimes people don’t always turn out the way I expect them to but I guess I’ll just have to be thankful for everything else that’s goes on wonderfully right around me.
Tanya used to say death always happens in 3s..i desperately hope and pray for the falsity of this because I cannot handle anymore. I am off to say my I love you’s to my family..and etta if you are reading this and I’m sure you are.. Regardless of how much we fight or how so bloody much you irritate me, I love you
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